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He is a Liar

2014 aah.. The year which made me live my favourite dream and worst nightmare simultaneously.

Right from January to December I was fighting to make a broken relationship work. Well there were few relieving days in the year when everything seemed alright but maximum days went dull. December was the month when I heard from him that he no longer wants me in his life. I was shattered in pieces. Now there were no hopes that things will change. I took that relationship very seriously hoping that this is just a phase and things will be in my favour someday but realizing that things will never be the way they were before, broke me. Meanwhile I was seeing a doctor because ten months of continuous trauma and tension of that relationship made me weak, incapable of thinking anything. I was performing really bad at my workplace. I did not wanted to spoil my life the way I had started doing so consulting a psychiatrist remained only option after trying numerous ways to overcome my feeling for that person.

The medicines and counselling of my psychiatrist had just temporary effects.. Rest of the time I felt unhappy with everything in life. By now all my friends and family members knew about my condition but they were unable to help me because I live in a different city. All suggested me to move on but I was unable to believe that such a beautiful relationship which I considered the best thing happened to me, had ended. Some false hope was still there....

One day in the last week of December a friend called me. She was our common friend. She knew him really well and she had some of his old contacts. On behalf of me, she talked to those contacts and to my shock the past which I have been told by him, completely contradicted. I lived two years with such big lies. So far I thought that, might be I had made some mistake for which he wanted this break up. But after knowing all the truths, that day I realized a relationship whose fundamentals are lies can never work. Its good that it ended early. I wept whole night, fighting to sleep atleast few hours.. All my love and respect for that person washed off with my tears..

The Next Day was 1st January 2015. I had the appointment with my doctor. I was driving to the hospital and had to wait for quite long on a signal. One girl waiting besides me on her two wheeler was talking softly to a friend on her phone. suddenly her voice raised and she shouted on phone, "He is a Liar".. She repeated this 10 times.  

I got the INDICATION from this coincidence. I went to my doctor, told him the whole story and thanked him for helping me to survive those 2 months when my condition was the worst. I settled my accounts at his cash counter.

I don't see the doctor now. 

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